Transparency

Thinking about things I did wrong, not that I am dwelling on my failures, but reflecting on my growth and what has gotten me to this place. Behavior is the way one acts or conducted oneself, especially towards others (Oxford languages).

It is hard to admit, but my behavior over the years has been ugly. I remember saying ugly things to my mother, aunts, and other family members. I remember one of my grandfather's sisters correcting me for something I had said concerning my mother. What caused me to behave so badly? Anger, bitterness, low self esteem......

First let me say, each of us has our own journey, our path has been laid out before us. Before I was formed in the womb, God knew me. The way I behaved, at that time, led me here to this place. My journey has not been peaceful and so many times I cried because I did not understand what was taking place in my life.

Be encouraged, this is just a pit stop, it is not permanent. God has a purpose determined for your life and everything you go through, everything you do, your behaviors (good and bad) are being used to get you to that determined purpose. You may not see it today but I promise you that you will see it after this. Call on His name, He will answer you. Remember you did not choose Him, He chose you! God has you right here, so He can get the glory out of your, life and out of your behaviors....So when people see you they will say " I know it was God".

You can not change your past and everyone you hurt may not accept your apology, but allow your light to shine, your story will be used to impact in the earth.